Finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. - Nearly cured.

[tenacity]

Hey everybody. I hope all of you are doing well and taking everything one day at a time. After 4 months, I think I'm finally going to be able to move past all of this. I know that my case would be considered very mild compared to most who browse here, but I only took 4 5 mg pills of Lexapro. I discontinued on June 21, 2018 after noticing that I couldn't get an erection at all. It stayed that way for quite sometime. I had some anesthesia for a temporary period but that left relatively quickly. I haven't moved past my physical anxiety symptoms and I'm still suffering on a daily basis as a result of those, but I am working with a counselor and things are going a lot better for me in that regard as well. It has been a long 4 months. A lot of nights I would be okay, but on some nights I would be crying myself to sleep because I thought things would never get better for me. I think the best thing I did for myself was to think about it less. I don't want to say it was all in my head because I know for a FACT that it wasn't. I would still say I'm on the lower end of normal functioning right now. I will however admit that my negative thinking DEFINITELY didn't make my symptoms any better, and being so stuck on the fact that I was broken made me even more broken, or at least that is just my theory on it. As I started college, I found myself focusing less and less on my condition. Right now I have a 100 average in my first year engineering class, and I plan on trying to keep it that way if I can. The days I have spent focusing on school rather than what is wrong with me have helped me get away from the negativity inside of my own head. Having something to do has helped me tremendously. I feel like that in a sense has helped me heal. I feel like some of the side effects of the medicine still linger and I don't feel 100% back to normal, but I would say I'm probably about 85-90% there. I honestly can't remember how I functioned before all of this, which is kind of sad because it hasn't been that long. I just wanted to let you guys know that I'm going to be stamping this a part of my life that I've managed to get through. I'm still going to be visiting the forum when I can so I can see how everyone is doing. I never really got to get to know many of you but I want everyone to know that it isn't worth giving up and that with time you'll make the progress that you want to make. No one deserves to have this happen to them and I hope everyone can see their way out of it someday. One of my favorite sayings is the deeper the trench the higher the peak. I'd like to think that it is a true saying and I just wanted to bring a positive post to the table. I think I can finally say I've found some light and I'm nearly out. Feel free to message me if you ever want to talk and I'll get back to you when I can. I care about all of you.

[Bear]

Happy for you Tenacity! good luck forever man.