Hi guys ive been a bit of a lurker for the past year or two and have accounts and posted on some of the other ssri forums. here's a bit of history
i have a 2 year history of taking anti depressants. citalopram was the first that i took and triggered the anhedonia, PE, hard to keep erections and watery sperm. it mostly triggered after coming off and at that time i was already taking elavil and eventually took zoloft for 6 months which made everything better for like 2 weeks. anyway long story short i didn't know about pssd and was too young and inexperienced to understand that my somewhat mild sexual dysfunction was caused by the drugs even though i came off them.
its been over three years since ive come off zoloft and everything else and ive had new symptoms appear which have slowly worsened over time. low libido, numbness on my skin/genital region, and shrinkage. i got my hormones tested and turns out i have high prolactin. my endo wants me to take cabergoline. my problems are no longer mild and are a lot worse.
im really terrified about taking it because im 19 turning 20, and i have many other problems caused by anti depressants.
for instance i am constantly stressed out... almost like akathesia but not really, just consistently tense, and i got that "feeling" in your chest when youre really under pressure about something, like your about to start sweating. it makes me irritable and agitated and very easily stressed by fairly normal things. i also have a neurological condition called "visual snow" which is basically a whole bunch of visual disturbances like floaters and all the rest (this has progressed over time too). im mostly numb emotionally and have a hard time feeling pleasure from things. i have tinnitus, derealization, brain fog, insomnia, the list goes on.
Basically i feel like i have damage or something due to taking these meds at a young age and my end goal would be to not have to take anything and feel alright. I really do believe some of the things ive mentioned can improve on its own and because my case is so weird and complicated i dont want to make some of my symptoms worse by taking cabergoline (or any drug) and i dont want to complicate things even more with new problems. i believe my chronic stress is part of the problem for me as well.
TLDR: i have high prolactin, been prescribed cabergoline, very sensitive to drugs and scared to take it, what should i do?